My Heart

Dear friends, let me introduce, this is my heart. Heart, say hello to my friends.. 


The heart is a very mysterious organ (or more specifically muscle). You really never know what's going on in there. For these few weeks I've been praying very hard for one thing. I prayed that God will guard my heart. And let me tell you, the harder you pray, the bigger the temptation you will get. Seriously, it's true even if it's not scientifically proven. But it's true. I've been trying very hard myself too, but somehow, you'll tend to just give in sometimes. I mean, the temptation is really to great for me to withstand. He just kept appearing in my dreams and in real life. (and yeah, it's about a guy. Duh..) And as time passed, his positive qualities began to show out more and more which is really really tempting. And somehow i began to have second thoughts. Almost everything around me reminds me of him. In the most important moments in my life, he was actually there. He is truly a very good husband and father, and he has the ability to bring me closer to God. Any girl who God chose to be with him will surely have a bright future ahead. I know i am wrong to even think of these because indirectly i am beginning to imagine i am that girl. I know i am in a very dangerous position now. I believe what God had told me few months ago and i know i have to obey Him since i knew what He already planned for me, unless He has changed His plans?? Who knows? But right now, i know i've got to put a stop on this before things get out of hand. And i really need God to guide me through this. 

10 Ways to Embrace Freedom

Caution: These are to be conducted by FEMALES ONLY. I will not be responsible for all the consequences if a guy does all the things i am going to post. And finally, do them at your own risk and any loss (either physically or mentally) will be your own responsibility!


10 WAYS TO EMBRACE FREEDOM


1) Go braless outdoors 
2) Go out without make-up
3) Walk in an expensive designer store, look interested in one of the most costly thing in the store and say out loud, "It is so affordable, but it's just not my colour!" Then, just walk out.
4) See a hottie stranger in a street? Go ahead and tell him that he's hot in his face!
5) Post on Facebook that you are so over it and you are going to delete your account. And change your mind the next day.
6) When you reach a restaurant (one that sells high-class food and the waiters' outfits are more expensive than the one you are wearing), ask if they could announce your arrival and when the waiter is walking you to your seat, look for another table and just sit there.
7) When you receive a call from a telemarketer asking whether you are interested in whatever stuff he/she is working for, ask him/her back whether they are interested in buying your car or house.
8) Take a domestic flight to and fro to another place in less than 24 hours just to eat.
9) Be the first one who dance in the dance floor of any occasion.
10) Raid your BFF's closet and borrow something you'd never wear and wear it in public.


There you go girls! How many things from the above can you do? I tell you if you could manage to do all of it, congratulations! You manage to successfully embrace freedom and don't give a shit to what others think about you! :D

The Amazing Moments in Life

1) Coming home late and go straight to bed
2) Buying amazing clothes that you found on sale
3) Holding hands
4) Unexpected moments that become your favourite memories
5) Talking on the phone until five in the morning
6) Resting on someone's chest
7) Taking long showers that wash away your worries
8) Feeling as though you finally belong to somewhere
9) Deciding on what you want to do with your life
10) Feeling satisfied after a delicious meal
11) Falling asleep instantly when you feel upset
12) Meeting people that happen to change your life
13) When you have a great night of sleep
14) Drinking a cup of tea
14) Realizing everything is going to be okay


General conclusion: My life is almost AMAZING!! :)


Cheers, people! ( And Joyce, i miss you!! )

*GULP!*

After looking at this picture, i totally have second thoughts of my ambition!!!!!!!!!! 

Speechless!!!!! 

What do you want from me?

I don't really get it. I've been trying very hard to get over you, and finally, after 2 years, i did it. I managed to successfully not think about you. At all. And now, you came looking for me again. And what is that supposed to mean? You texted me so suddenly and started pouring out your problems. I mean, where is your girlfriend when you needed her the most. It's not that I'm blaming her, but aren't you supposed to turn to her the moment you have problems? Why do you still bother to come looking for me? Why do you want to make things so complicated again? Just so you know, when you did not reply me when i sent you a birthday text, I really want to thank you for doing so. Because i don't feel a thing. That means i'm really over you. And that you do not care. But now, what is all this supposed to mean? What do you want from me? Do you think that you have not hurt me enough? And you are just so selfish. Do you really expect me to be there for you when you are not even there for me in times i needed you most? And don't you ever think of lying to me that you had not know how much i felt for you. I have given you so many chances, but you never appreciate them and i always end up feeling so disappointed in you. And don't you ever tell me that you do not feel the same way as i do, because you'll be lying to yourself. It still hurts, you know? Do you think i felt nothing whenever i pass through the places where we had our memories back then? If you do think so, you are wrong. And let me tell you this, you have given me memories that no one can ever replace them, and i am thankful for that. But for now, please, do not do this anymore. Both of us know very well enough that it is not going to get us anywhere. So, please don't ever do this again.

It's Fridayyyyy!!!!!

It's Friday again, and today was going really well! I had my Physics Trial exam this morning, and i think i did quite well. :) I loooove Physics! This was the best paper i've ever had since the beginning of the trials. All thanks to God who told me not to fear because He's always there for me. I gained faith in Him and I am really thankful for His mercy and blessings. I am glad because i have Him, not only as my God or savior, but He is my friend. I just need to call upon Him, and He will be with me at all times. It's going to be a whole long and endless list if i am to list down all the things that i need to thank Him. But, just for now, Thank God it's Friday!!! Cheers, people! 

Thank you Lord, for creating Fridays... :)

And the existence of Physics!

Dear Lord, please give me the wisdom and strength to win the battle tomorrow. I know it's going to be tough to defeat the Killing Machine that my Physics lecturer just made, but at least let me be invincible to all its attacks. Amen.

Being Single Feels Good

It's always been about me, myself and I
I thought relationships were nothing but a waste of time
I never wanted to be anybody's other half
I was happy saying i had love that wouldn't last
That was the only way i knew til' i met you
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And i still feel the same way as if I have never met you before.
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And yup, that's a lie.

Burning the midnight oil

Here am i, staying wide awake although it is my bedtime now. Actually i'm not supposed to be blogging as time is precious for me to revise for my chemistry trial tomorrow. But, i figured that i might as well take a break from all those chemical terms and post something before getting back to work. Well, all the practicals are over now, and so far i think i am satisfied with both Chemistry and Physics. As for Biology, well, it's a bit tough. Tomorrow will be the day which i am most worried about. I never did well for my Chemistry but now it's time for me to evaluate myself again. For the past 2 months, i have been focusing on this subject and i really hope that my hardwork pays off! Cheers and to all my friends who are still studying, all the best!! :D

Congratulations!!!

I just knew that the famous, one and only Bernard Hiew a.k.a. tau fu pok is marrying someone from Skyline SIB!! This is totally unbelievable! Funny, cute, charming and handsome Bernard getting married, settling down? It's really hard to believe. But, her wife to be is cute and i think they look really good together. I wonder how he proposed? It's a teeny weeny bit hard to imagine him proposing in a romantic way, with candlelit dinner or under the stars...... haha! Anyways, congratulations to both of you and God Bless!! 


Cheers!!