My Heart

Dear friends, let me introduce, this is my heart. Heart, say hello to my friends.. 


The heart is a very mysterious organ (or more specifically muscle). You really never know what's going on in there. For these few weeks I've been praying very hard for one thing. I prayed that God will guard my heart. And let me tell you, the harder you pray, the bigger the temptation you will get. Seriously, it's true even if it's not scientifically proven. But it's true. I've been trying very hard myself too, but somehow, you'll tend to just give in sometimes. I mean, the temptation is really to great for me to withstand. He just kept appearing in my dreams and in real life. (and yeah, it's about a guy. Duh..) And as time passed, his positive qualities began to show out more and more which is really really tempting. And somehow i began to have second thoughts. Almost everything around me reminds me of him. In the most important moments in my life, he was actually there. He is truly a very good husband and father, and he has the ability to bring me closer to God. Any girl who God chose to be with him will surely have a bright future ahead. I know i am wrong to even think of these because indirectly i am beginning to imagine i am that girl. I know i am in a very dangerous position now. I believe what God had told me few months ago and i know i have to obey Him since i knew what He already planned for me, unless He has changed His plans?? Who knows? But right now, i know i've got to put a stop on this before things get out of hand. And i really need God to guide me through this.