*GULP!*

After looking at this picture, i totally have second thoughts of my ambition!!!!!!!!!! 

Speechless!!!!! 

What do you want from me?

I don't really get it. I've been trying very hard to get over you, and finally, after 2 years, i did it. I managed to successfully not think about you. At all. And now, you came looking for me again. And what is that supposed to mean? You texted me so suddenly and started pouring out your problems. I mean, where is your girlfriend when you needed her the most. It's not that I'm blaming her, but aren't you supposed to turn to her the moment you have problems? Why do you still bother to come looking for me? Why do you want to make things so complicated again? Just so you know, when you did not reply me when i sent you a birthday text, I really want to thank you for doing so. Because i don't feel a thing. That means i'm really over you. And that you do not care. But now, what is all this supposed to mean? What do you want from me? Do you think that you have not hurt me enough? And you are just so selfish. Do you really expect me to be there for you when you are not even there for me in times i needed you most? And don't you ever think of lying to me that you had not know how much i felt for you. I have given you so many chances, but you never appreciate them and i always end up feeling so disappointed in you. And don't you ever tell me that you do not feel the same way as i do, because you'll be lying to yourself. It still hurts, you know? Do you think i felt nothing whenever i pass through the places where we had our memories back then? If you do think so, you are wrong. And let me tell you this, you have given me memories that no one can ever replace them, and i am thankful for that. But for now, please, do not do this anymore. Both of us know very well enough that it is not going to get us anywhere. So, please don't ever do this again.

It's Fridayyyyy!!!!!

It's Friday again, and today was going really well! I had my Physics Trial exam this morning, and i think i did quite well. :) I loooove Physics! This was the best paper i've ever had since the beginning of the trials. All thanks to God who told me not to fear because He's always there for me. I gained faith in Him and I am really thankful for His mercy and blessings. I am glad because i have Him, not only as my God or savior, but He is my friend. I just need to call upon Him, and He will be with me at all times. It's going to be a whole long and endless list if i am to list down all the things that i need to thank Him. But, just for now, Thank God it's Friday!!! Cheers, people! 

Thank you Lord, for creating Fridays... :)

And the existence of Physics!

Dear Lord, please give me the wisdom and strength to win the battle tomorrow. I know it's going to be tough to defeat the Killing Machine that my Physics lecturer just made, but at least let me be invincible to all its attacks. Amen.

Being Single Feels Good

It's always been about me, myself and I
I thought relationships were nothing but a waste of time
I never wanted to be anybody's other half
I was happy saying i had love that wouldn't last
That was the only way i knew til' i met you
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And i still feel the same way as if I have never met you before.
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And yup, that's a lie.

Burning the midnight oil

Here am i, staying wide awake although it is my bedtime now. Actually i'm not supposed to be blogging as time is precious for me to revise for my chemistry trial tomorrow. But, i figured that i might as well take a break from all those chemical terms and post something before getting back to work. Well, all the practicals are over now, and so far i think i am satisfied with both Chemistry and Physics. As for Biology, well, it's a bit tough. Tomorrow will be the day which i am most worried about. I never did well for my Chemistry but now it's time for me to evaluate myself again. For the past 2 months, i have been focusing on this subject and i really hope that my hardwork pays off! Cheers and to all my friends who are still studying, all the best!! :D

Congratulations!!!

I just knew that the famous, one and only Bernard Hiew a.k.a. tau fu pok is marrying someone from Skyline SIB!! This is totally unbelievable! Funny, cute, charming and handsome Bernard getting married, settling down? It's really hard to believe. But, her wife to be is cute and i think they look really good together. I wonder how he proposed? It's a teeny weeny bit hard to imagine him proposing in a romantic way, with candlelit dinner or under the stars...... haha! Anyways, congratulations to both of you and God Bless!! 


Cheers!! 

A Heart Full of Thanks

Thank you Lord, thank you so much for all Your blessings all this time. Forgive me for not realizing this until now. Thank you for all the things you have given to me. When i am worried, you comfort me with your words. When i am in doubt, you gave me the greatest reassurance in my life, telling me not to doubt anymore and to cast all my problems unto your loving hands. When i was going to do something wrong, you told me the right thing i am supposed to do. You've greatly blessed me with good health and joy in my life. I know it will never be enough to thank you, but i promise you, Lord that i will try my very best to fulfill my role as your child, a christian and to proclaim your greatness to others. :)

Nicknames

From the beginning of the year, my friend and i have been giving nicknames to a few of the people in school to prevent other people from knowing what and who we are actually talking about. These are all the nicknames we got (hopefully i remember all of them!)


1) Chong Chong (worm in chinese. It actually indirectly means that the person is perverted.)
2) Long Waist
3) Weird Hair Guy
4) My Stranger
5) Your Stranger
6) China Guy
7)  An Jing (Quiet in chinese, but if both words are put together, it means dog in Malay Language)
8) Kok Kok Gai (means chicken, or more precisely rooster in chinese)
9)Edward Cullen #1
10) Bella #1
11) Edward Cullen #2
12) Bella #2
13) Perfume
14) No. 13
15) Korean Guy
16) Lowby #1
17) Lowby #2
18) Best Friend
19) Best Friend's Best Friend
20) Long Legs
21) Plant
22) Suria Guy
23) Mai Ying (Sell and Win in chinese)
24) No Life Gang
25) Bible Character
26) Mother Theresa
27) IT Man
28) Leng Lui ( Beautiful Girl in chinese, but we are actually refering to a guy which we think that he'll be very pretty if she is a girl XD)
28) Miss Hong Kong
29)Marshall (from How i Met Your Mother)
30) Lily (from How i Met Your Mother)

Favourite Quotes (both heard and said)

Quote number one:

CORRECT!

Never ever look down on this word. It is so powerful that it actually manages to keep one optimistic and motivated. Teachers should use this word more rather than just saying "yes" or nodding their heads. XD

Quote number two:

What's yours will be yours and what's not yours will never be yours no matter how hard you try to get it.

This quote is more than just a quote. It is actually telling us that in life, we cannot always get what we want if it is destined to be ours. But, i am very thankful that i have got at least one thing that i want and i know that one day, it will be mine. :)

Quote number three:

Sei Lorh........ 

I know i know...This is not an optimistic quote at all. But believe it or not, i found myself using it all the time. Especially during exams or tests. So, it has unexpectedly be short-listed in to my all-time fave quote list!! :D

Quote number four:

Why do you have sore throat?

This is a stupid yet funny quote and i just heard it today, thanks to someone. *winks* Actually, this is really quite a dumb question i have to admit although it seems normal for someone to ask like that i guess.

Quote number five:

Listen, to the song here in my heart

A melody i start but can't complete...

This is actually not a quote, but the lyrics of the song, Listen by Beyonce. This song means a lot to me and it is stuck in my head for two months already and i still couldn't get rid of it. I guess it is too special for me to get over with it. 

Quote number six:

I'm so hungry! I wanna eat!

This is also one of my all-time quotes and i usually say this in school during lectures and practicals where i'll be complaining to my friend about how hungry and how desperate my stomach needs to be fed. 

Quote number seven:

I feel so dumb.

Yup, i feel like that all the time now. My school is so so so full of smart asses that makes me feel like i'm an idiot sometimes, especially during chemistry lectures and lab practicals, I wonder what are their brains made of......




:) Cheers! (:

I wonder when will it be MY turn??

Wedding Ceremony

I just came back from a wedding ceremony of one of my mum's students and i am just so happy for both of them. It's always nice to see people getting married and by just looking at them, you could already see the joy radiating from their faces. The bride was crying when her father handed her to her husband to be and sobbing when asked to hug her parents, sister and brother as a sign of peace and saying her vows. My eyes were welled with tears too and i saw a few of the people there wiping the tears off their eyes. It was such a wonderful ceremony, seeing two people getting married and spending the rest of their lives together.


Well, to Kok Vui and Cecelia Tian, all the very best and may God Bless you! :)

Fiction vs. Reality

I just finished watching a WongFu production, Shell and it inspires me to share my thoughts in this blog. This video is about fiction and reality. Our lives are shaped by our experiences. Our experiences are preserved in our memories. But what if we had a chance to remember things that we never actually experienced? "Shell" explores this idea through a quiet conversation. If you could look through a window that softened the edge between reality and fiction, what would you want to see? What would you want to remember?


If i am asked whether i would prefer to live in fiction or reality, my answer will be in fiction. I am a girl who loves to fantasize and i don't mean to bluff, but i really have a very good imagination. Which is why when it comes to writing fiction essays, i would spend all of my time writing and never wanting my story to end. 


Some people may disagree with me, saying that reality is something you have to face no matter what.  Yes i know, but i have always believed that man has choices in his life. He has options and he has the right to choose whether he wants to stay in the real world his whole life or to pay visits to the world in which everything you desire will come to you and there is nothing that can stop it. 


For me, living in fiction is actually fun and it can actually build up your confidence. People say that dreams and fantasies and imaginations are useless. But think again. They are wrong. For example, you can never get rich if you never once thought about the things you can do or get if you become rich one day, right? In other words, everyone needs imaginations and dreams. Without them, we will never be complete. Dreams and imaginations links to reality and they always pushes us to try harder to make fiction into reality. 


Fiction brings us into a world without limits. A world that is so perfect that it is impossible in reality. Fiction brings us beyond our expectations and i don't think that is a bad thing. I believe that J.K. Rowling,Cecelia Ahern and a bunch of other famous writers will back me up on this. 


Reality sometimes hurt. I should put it this way: Most of the time, reality hurts. And the only cure to it is fiction. This is because what you cannot achieve in reality can be achieved in fiction. All it needs is a bit of imagination and creativity. :)