Little Pleasures of Life (Part 2)

Taiwanese Mangoes. You'll never know how good it tastes until you try it yourself!

Pineapples

View from the Guan Mountain (Guan Shan)

View from Er Luan Bi, Kenting

Lighthouse at Er Luan Bi

The Sun 

A small path which leads to the forest track

The view outside the campus we're living in the university

From Taipei 101 with LOVE

Fellow Male Group Leaders of this Summer Camp

Night Market in Kenting

Chalets in Kenting where we stayed there for one night.

Mangoes again!

Breathtaking view from Guan Shan

Sunset

Chinese hot dog where the bread is made out of glutinous rice and the hot dog is actually a chinese style hot dog.

Sunset view taken from the bus while leaving Guan Shan

Trust

A question popped into my mind this morning. 


"Are you happy, Kelly? Are you happy with your life, Kelly?" 


This is a very simple question but i was surprised because i couldn't give an answer to this question straightaway. All i can say is: "I don't know." 


I asked this question to my best friend last night and she said yes. But why can't i be as confident as her? After thinking for a while, i knew the reason why i had difficulties answering that simple question. I have lost trust to the people around me. I do not know when did this happen. But when i come to think of it, i knew it. I found myself very hard to trust other people. 


Without trust, i cannot find true friendship and love. And only true friendship and love can make one happy. That's why i can't answer yes straightaway. Because long ago i have already lost trust. A lot of people said to me, "Kelly, you are a very strong and confident girl. How i wish i could be like you." or "Kelly, i am eighteen and you are too. But why are you so much more mature than me?" The thing is, i am strong and confident only because i do not want help from other people. And the reason why i rejected help is because i do not trust them. There's always fear inside me. Fear that i will get hurt. Fear that i will be betrayed one more time. 




Betrayal is the main reason i lost trust. Being betrayed by your best friend hurts more than anything in this world. When i heard about it, i was completely lost for words. A friend who you spend most of your time in school and outside school is actually using you all this time and even talk bad about you in front of other people. A friend who know all your secrets but you never realized that she never told you hers until the day you knew you got betrayed. A friend who become best friends or "sisters" with the people who made fun or criticize you in front of the whole class and you still think that's okay until the day you knew she had betrayed you. A friend who lies to you and during the whole time together all she said to you was about studies and nothing else because for her, your brains is the only thing she wants. 


I was so stupid. So so stupid. What's the use of having brains but didn't even know that you've been betrayed and used by your best friend? From that incident onwards, i found it very hard to trust the people around me. I became independent and strong. But sometimes, when i thought of it, the pain came back and it won't even go away no matter how. Then i realized that i must really love her as my very very best friend. I love her so much that i won't even think to taking revenge for what she had done to me. I treated her as my younger sister and i am willing to take the pain myself rather than to see her getting hurt. It took me really long to learn to trust someone now. There are only two persons in this world that i really could depend on now because no matter what happen, they are the first two people who care for me and stand along with me when i have difficulties. And i thank God with all my heart for bringing these two people into my life. Joyce and Daxter, i love you guys and thank you for every tear you shed and every laugh you share with me. thank you for all the help, support and encouragement all this time. You guys made my day. I love you guys. 

Being loved is a blessing, to love is a courage.

Confessions

Confession #1- Rainie Yang is a very talented actress. I never thought so before that, but now i realized that she is, indeed far more talented than most of the Taiwanese actresses. There is no other person to look for if a comedy needs a funny and crazy female lead actress. She is a girl who is not afraid of being stupid and silly in front of the camera. To be honest, i don't think anyone can do such a good job acting like a dumb girl like she does. 


Confession #2- Wilber Pan is hot!!! I meant what i said. He's sizzling hot! I never knew he is an ABC. And he speaks English so fluently. I regretted for not paying attention on his music and drama. He is quite a talented actor and singer too. And from most of the BTS of the dramas he is in, i couldn't exactly say he is cool, because he is more of the funny type of guy. Almost everyone say he can be a comedian if he wants to.


Seriously people, watch Miss No Good and you'll know what i mean. Cheers! :)

Feelings

"I don’t know but I think I maybe falling for you
Dropping so quickly
Maybe I should keep this to myself
Waiting ’til I know you better
I am trying not to tell you but I want to
I’m scared of what you’ll say
So I’m hiding what I’m feeling
But I’m tired of holding this inside my head
I’ve been spending all my time just thinking about ya
I don’t know what to do
I think I’m fallin’ for you
I've been waiting all my life and now I found ya
I don’t know what to do
I think I’m fallin’ for you"


This is really weird, because i just realized that i used to feel this way like what the lyrics say every single time i  think i like a guy, but it turns out to be all wrong after some time. But now everything's different. Very different. And it all started not long ago when i first met you. :) 

Little Pleasures of Life (Part 1)I

I never thought airplane food is that tasty (maybe i am too excited) :p

This tandoori chicken wrap tasted like heaven!!

How can something this nice can be bought from 7-Eleven taiwan, but not the ones in Kota Kinabalu??

Saliva Drippin'!!

Another delicious delicacy from 7-Eleven (only in Taiwan)

Ham and eggs!

Just the right food for a hot summer afternoon and guess what, it only costs 15tpd!! (round RM1.50)

Taiwan's signature tea

They even sell Malaysian products! (Taken from Family Mart, Taiwan)

Look at all these different variety of drinks.....

Spot the odd one out in this picture. Answer: Chopsticks
Explanation: How can one eat porridge with a pair of chopsticks??

Breakfast looks really good..

Rice in Taiwan is a bit more stickier that that of Malaysia. Most probably to enable them to eat it using chopsticks?

Lunch is looking good... :)

p.s. you can only find this in one place, TAIWAN!! 

:(

I.MISS.TAIWAN.AND.ITS.EVERYTHING. 

Hello Taipei!!!

Greetings and ni hao from Taipei!! Here am i again, blogging away in a hotel in Ximen, Taipei. Well, so far i am enjoying the food and other stuff here. But i realized that the people here in Taipei is not as friendly as the people in Kaoshiung, which makes me miss all my friends from around there and China as well.:( I really hope that i could go back there. Anyways, there's a mini concert with a bohemian theme right in front of the hotel where i am staying, and Jolin and Jam Tshiao are performing in less than 1 hour!!! So im just gonna stop right here and will upload tons of pics when i come back!! tata for now!! Wo ai Tai Wan!! :)

i am 800 miles away from you now.... when i get back to kota kinabalu, i will be 3554 miles away from you and when i reach sandakan, i will be 3695 miles away from you.... :(

From Kaoshiung with LOVE

Time passes so fast and now it's already the last day of summer camp. I really had lots of lots of fun during these few days. I got to know a lot of people from China, Taiwan and Vietnam. These people were awesome! They are friendly and kind and i will always remember the memories i had in taiwan. How i wish today is the first day of camp... This camp truly rocks! 

Things i have learnt from the first day:

1) Eating porridge with a pair of chopsticks.

2) Eating three meals with a pair of chopsticks.

3) To climb up 100+ stairs under the hot hot sun in a very short time.

4) To dance stupid but yet funny dances after breakfast and lunch.

5) To learn French in an English Class taught by an awesome and amazing Vietnamese teacher.

6)To not to feel bad after buying a dress which costs RM200 plus (which has an original price of RM700 plus)

7) To act as a girl who has a boyfriend who was gay before falling in love with me in a performance.

8) To be able to speak better chinese.

9) And lots more!!!

Well honestly speaking, i will miss this camp so freaking much!! And i do feel sad and i was trying so hard to prevent my tears from falling during the closing ceremony. And not forgetting one very special person i met who managed to make this camp better. :)

TAIWAN!!!!

Hello!!!! Here i am in a cyber centre in I-Shou University taiwan!!!! I cannot believe i am already here!!!! :D And there are lots of lots of good food here!!! This is unbelievable, and the people here are so friendly. I have a roommate from Hoabinh and she is a very nice person. At first, i may have a little cultural shock because their way of living is completely different from us Malaysians, but i always tell myself to think positively.. :) Anyways, another thing that shock me is that al,ost all of the students from Taiwan and China praise me and the other student councillors for our "fluent chinese" (that's what they say) i mean their chinese is way way better than us and when they praise us, i am not flattered at all. oh well, will upload many many pictures after i reach home.. tata for now. 

Dear JoHn,

Dear John,

Two weeks together, that’s all it took. Two weeks for me to fall in love with you. Now we have one year apart. But what’s one year apart after two weeks like that together? You made me a promise. A promise I know you’ll keep. So I only want one more promise from you during this time we spend apart. Tell me everything. Write it all down, John. Scribble it in a notebook.Type it out, email it to me. I don’t care, but I wanna know everything. And that way we’ll be together all the time even if we’re not with each other at all. That way before we know it, I’ll see you soon, then.